I got pulled into this conflicted area because I was supposed to be married but this husband was in a cult - the Ohio cult in fact and was an abuser in many ways.  The details of this were basically that I was raped by a jailbird who was a repeat offender and was staying in a  halfway house in the Coumubus area and this rapr was not reported then.  etings along with working.  I was transporting this man to AA

to do the right thing.  This crook had a terrible temper and damaged  my car by smashing his fist on the dashboard of my car which he apparently thought was hilarious.  This rape and sexula assuat was something this man also did to other women and man was the typical gang member in every way.  Rape incident left me bruised up, scratched up, and angry. Not long after this occurred, I missed a menstral period and discovered, through first taking a pregnancy test, and then a test at the doctor, that I was pregnant.  I knew that pregnancy could not be linked to my marriage, since marriage was sterile and celibate.  I approached my boyfriend about this, because the date of conception matched the time when I was last "with him", not the 'other encounter', and he wanted nothing to do with this, and chose not to even accompany me to the doctor or abortion clinic.  This is what ended that relationship.  When I told my husband that I was pregnant, he advised me to have an abortion.  I had an abortion at a clinic in Cincinnati which was really rough and which part of entailed stopping in a motel in the Cincinnati area in pain, because it was close.  Sheets in that room were bloodied and horrible because of the fact that I was still bleeding after this procedure and bleeding would not stop.  My husband phoned the abortion clinic from there and they advised me to come back in to clinic.  They were able to take care of me and stop the bleeding, but for some reason this incident became the business of many, many people.  This is also what started this "father's rights" area because the person who was not conulted, but apparently wanted me to have this child was the rapist.  This rapist started saying things like : "Child could be mine", and "I have rights, too", and was the one to creat ganland issues in Ohio over this.  This man was also apparently part of a gang, and this is about the same time that I started seeing parts of my life "split off" in other areas, and in the media, always in reference to other people, but never to me.   This also was the result of being in the Social Work profession a former victim and codependent with other abuse in my life.